3 months - He can recognised me... loving every min of it...sob sob ;)

My baby so big and healthy ar. Thank you god for this. I actually build muscle by carrying him. Most of my clothes sleeves is tight now. Doesnt really bother me cause I am so proud of him.

I think he can recognise me, a few times I managed to stop him from crying so hard and loud even after many attempt from others. Boy, it feels so good. Selfishly, I do wish that he only needs and wants me. Maybe by this way it makes me feel that I am doing a good job being a mom. Till now, I am still worried if I am a good mom to him. I suppose is a question that will going on forever till the day I die.

Every new things he does is like opening a new window of happiness in heart. His attempt to lift his head, his longer and louder "ang goos" or "aaa", grabbing my mouth, raising his eye brow, his giggles, doing the sucking motion when he is in his deep sleep, sleeping with his mouth open, looking good in his polo T, putting his hands together, his manja face when you hug him so tightly, sitting quietly on the car sit ... all this little things. Moments that even camera cant really capture the real feeling. Is the moment when I tell myself that he is my purpose life. Moments when I know I must have done something right to deserve this. These are the moments of my life.

He is getting better looking as he grows. I can never thank god enough for his good looks. Thank you.

I can't wait for more sweet memories to be kept safely and surely in my heart. I love you, my cute son.

Just do it!

Time flies when you are having fun. My son is already 1 month old and I am really happy. So love every minute being with him this whole month. Reality kicks in as you realised you only have another month left of maternity leave.
Babies, they grow so fast. How I wish I can slow down the time and enjoy more of our moments together. I look forward to seeing him grow bigger and older but at the same time I am already missing the passed of him.
Many people will tells you not to hold your baby so often or hug him to sleep or even kiss him too much. Afraid that your baby may be to clinky to you or refuse to sleep without you hugging. You have germs and kissing your baby will transfer it to him. I use to say this to my sister or other mothers too. Now, all I can say to other mothers is I am so wrong and "Just do it". Hold your baby, hug them, kiss them.
No doubt that they will get used to your hugging and cuddling that they cant be without you. Whats wrong with that? If is hard for you when you are working or away in future, worry about it later. Live by the day, tomorrows problem can wait. This is what you have now, time with your baby, cherish it.
As long as it doesn't hurt him physically, read more info on what do and don't for medical reasons and also make sure that you are clean. Enjoy your time with your child, trust me is not enough.

My undying love for my son

First check up after delivery on the 4th day was not as smooth as we hope for. Baby Jayden was diagnosed with jaundice. Slightly right below the borderline, doctor think is best to put him under the phototherapy. My first night after so many months away from him.
That moment when I have to pass my son onto the care of the nurses at the hospital, was such a painful experience. I just fed him and as the nurses helped take off his clothes, I couldnt stop crying. My heart ached so badly, I felt my undying love for my son. I think my hubby was equally feeling the pain as he too was having teary eyes.
After one night at the hospital, my strong son is finally home. My sweet baby was wide awake and his large eyes looking at us as we take him home. The sense of relief, now I know the real meaning of parenthood.