Saturday, May 30, 2009

Is your problem not mine

I have talk to many mom and most tell me that their hubby never help in raising their children. I feel blessed and I feel angry for them and angry at them. Dads out there, come on, take responsibility. Afterall, your kids carries your name not the mother's. AND YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS TO WORK.
Moms out there, tell your husband that he needs to be part of this. YOU DONT HAVE TO BE A SUPERMOM. Maybe I am lucky but I didnt get to where I am without an effort to ask. Well, if you are not as lucky, too bad but don't expect/think the rest of other mothers should like you.

3 months - He can recognised me... loving every min of it...sob sob ;)

My baby so big and healthy ar. Thank you god for this. I actually build muscle by carrying him. Most of my clothes sleeves is tight now. Doesnt really bother me cause I am so proud of him.

I think he can recognise me, a few times I managed to stop him from crying so hard and loud even after many attempt from others. Boy, it feels so good. Selfishly, I do wish that he only needs and wants me. Maybe by this way it makes me feel that I am doing a good job being a mom. Till now, I am still worried if I am a good mom to him. I suppose is a question that will going on forever till the day I die.

Every new things he does is like opening a new window of happiness in heart. His attempt to lift his head, his longer and louder "ang goos" or "aaa", grabbing my mouth, raising his eye brow, his giggles, doing the sucking motion when he is in his deep sleep, sleeping with his mouth open, looking good in his polo T, putting his hands together, his manja face when you hug him so tightly, sitting quietly on the car sit ... all this little things. Moments that even camera cant really capture the real feeling. Is the moment when I tell myself that he is my purpose life. Moments when I know I must have done something right to deserve this. These are the moments of my life.

He is getting better looking as he grows. I can never thank god enough for his good looks. Thank you.

I can't wait for more sweet memories to be kept safely and surely in my heart. I love you, my cute son.

Month 3

It's been 1 whole month since I got back to work. I mean, started my new role, having to deal with brand new team of people. It was a total craziness in the first 2 weeks but as I'm starting to get a hang of things, it's not that tough afterall.

JT is growing day by day, very well. His unique characters are starting to show. He's a happy baby when he gets enough sleep, milk and poo well but extremely vocal whenever he's not feeling comfortable or having a stomachache. He can cry your roof off just because he needs to be burped. He likes constant noise while sleeping instead of a quiet environment. When it's too quiet, a pin drop would wake him up, he's very alert and sensitive. But with the TV on, he can sleep like a baby, literally....hehe...He is very manja and wants hugs and attention all the time. Leave him alone for 2 minutes and he'll start scolding you - not crying just yet, but scolding, for good 5 minutes before he starts crying. As soon as you pick him up, he stops shouting immediately. He sweats a lot especially when drinking milk. If you lay him down on your thigh while feeding, sometimes you can really see sweat flowing down or a patch of wet sweat on your pants. He loves it a lot when you face a fan directly at him with strong wind blowing. As much as his smiles bringing him the ultimate power over us, his frowns will get him anything he wants. He is just too cute to say no to. Someone said his eyes are the least attractive of all of him but I think I spend more time looking at them then anything else because they are different everytime he blinks and I'll never have enough of them. At 3 months of age, he is bigger than most of his peers or even weighs the same as other babies at 6 months old. That's because he is going to grow taller and healthier than many others.

TTH

Saturday, May 2, 2009

I am going to win lottery, I just know it.

2 months has passed. It was as fast as a shooting star, passes you by without you noticing and yet its beautiful and magical at the same time.
This 2 months was one of the best days of my life. Spending those quality time with my son is priceless. He has grown so well and I feel like a proud mommy. Though we have a long way to go but I really really ... I mean really want to be with him every single moment. Not wanting to miss anything about him. During these last couple of days, I know I have been really emotional. Crying and laughing as I already start to miss him dearly.
I am excited to go back to work but I suppose is not enough to be away from him. He is my dear angel that looks exactly like his daddy. I am truly blessed but I think I deserve more than this. Or at least I want more than 2 months. I will win my lottery and be with him. ;p
My son, my baby, my king. I love you and I will miss you so much.
Mommy will work something out. I promise.

Friday, May 1, 2009

I wish.........

I’ve been blessed to be able to enjoy so much fun time at home for the past few weeks. Everyday was a new experience and new learnings. There is no such thing as “routine”. Each day was a different day, feeding time, changing time, crying time…….just when you think you’ve read so many articles about how to take good care of a baby, they will just pull something out that you are totally not prepared. It’s frustrating not knowing how to calm him down when he’s crying after trying everything from feeding to changing to dummy to carrying positions……I wish I know it all.

TTH